connexion

I want to get out and connect with ppl more. This one person moved in our church and WOW was totally bff with people in like 5 mins after coming and I SEE all sorts of photos of her and her new bffs on f.b and it makes me sad...how come I can't be bff with people 36 milleseconds after meeting them. Why do I alwys hole m.self in my room with the interwebs and say No peeps but no that is not good. So soon as I am done with uni I will try to call ppl more and try to find a bff.

I haven't had a bff in years or anything. Want one. Like gonna haves to clone meself to get one. Something like that.

Peace out.

Searching for God knows what?

I crave security. I crave knowing I have a home and a place to go to. I was reluctant to give that up even when I was a kid, 19 or 20. Security is what I want.

For most of my adult life I have depended on organisations for human contact. Not phoning up people to see if they want to go out for coffee. I was terrified to phone people. I would see them at the organisation and that would be it. Now I want to cast aside the organisation and build relationships. The organisation provides security and like I said, I love security. But I want to build relationships.