Searching for God knows what?

I crave security. I crave knowing I have a home and a place to go to. I was reluctant to give that up even when I was a kid, 19 or 20. Security is what I want.

For most of my adult life I have depended on organisations for human contact. Not phoning up people to see if they want to go out for coffee. I was terrified to phone people. I would see them at the organisation and that would be it. Now I want to cast aside the organisation and build relationships. The organisation provides security and like I said, I love security. But I want to build relationships.